The Confusion

I feel an emotion, more regularly now, and its really starting to get to me, eating at me day in, day out. Its more than jealousy now. I just feel so lost and confused wanting everything that i don't have. I just want to be happy and better at something than someone. 


I feel as if I'm being over looked, and no one realises my full potential because they are blinded by something else. It's been really starting to get to me. 


When people are so lucky and they don't realise and they take it for granted and when they don't get the usual attention or ability to do whatever they want, they change. Its hard watching, knowing that if i were to do that i wouldn't get my way.


Why am i not good enough? Why cant i just be somebody different, not the person i am. Why cant i get the things i want, why do i have to live in a shadow being over looked. Why do i have to be me?...