The Confusion Of Love

Everyone wants love, that one special person they can relate to and be with for the rest of their life. Everyone wants that person who will hold you in their arms and tell you they love you even when your hair is sticking up at odd angles and your face is a mess. Some people claim to have found this person, others haven't. i could write blogs and blogs on my feelings and who i love, but i'm not going too. 


If you were to see me in the street; stop me and ask me if i've found the person i want to be with for the rest of my life.. my answer, probably no. the truth is i'm not going to lie and tell the person i'm with that i'm going to stay with him forever. do i want too?? totally different question. i love my boyfriend, i do but i doubt i'll be with him forever and ever. people promise not to leave, but people always leave, hearts always get broken. so is there any point in even getting comfortable and settling down when you can guarantee your heart will be broken at the end?? it almost seems pointless, going through all this love just for it to end in pain, it really does. but love, when you find it, it makes you happy. 


if you find yourself with that person on your mind when you wake up in the morning, when you catch yourself reading the texts they send you over and over, when you catch yourself grinning at something they've said weeks after they've said it, when you can barely concentrate on what your doing any more, when you sign letters with their name, when you start to imagine what life would be like with them forever....... your in love...


when you find someone like this go for it, but hearts get broken, nothing is quite as it seems. loves pointless, you end up crying, but its fun at the time and it makes you feel like you.


i think i might be in love............. x