Today I'm feeling inspired so i have decided to create 2 blogs of completely different genres, so I'm going to write about the way my boy friend makes me feel.
My Boyfriend, what can i say? We haven't known each other for very long but i feel like its forever. I still remember the moments when we hardly spoke and the only interaction we had was a small smile in passing but its all changed now, everything has. I never thought i would fine someone who suits me like he does, its like exact puzzle pieces, its amazing.
He knows who he is, but he doesn't realise his potential and how gorgeous he is. He has the most amazing eyes I've ever looked into, they're deep green and they shine like theres no tomorrow, every time i look into his eyes i swear that those will haunt me where ever i go. His beautiful curly, flicky hair which he hates is adorable, the way it sticks out at funny angles and he gets so up tight about it, His smile, when he smiles i swear everything lights up inside of me and i feel myself smiling too. He's so insecure and i dont know why, it doesn't matter what everyone else thinks, as long as he knows how i feel about him I'll be happy. He's so clever, organised and talented it makes me look pathetic, hardly unorganised or clever. He manages to balance everything out equally, spending time with his friends, girlfriend and school work. He always says how he isn't good enough, how he needs to improve, but he's perfect just the way he is.
He's my marmite, you either hate him or love him and for me its the latter. Some people may not like him, but i always will. He goes through so much for me which he doesn't need too, he puts up with so much. He always finds the best in people, making them happy and making them laugh. when ever I'm with him i find myself grinning and i love the feeling. This boy would fight a war for me and i love him for it, He gets so much shit for going out with me but he fights through it just for me and i respect him for that, the way he holds his head up high and carries on.
We may have lied at the start of our relationship, kept it quiet and pretended like nothing was happening but we carried on together through everything that come our way and now every things perfect. He's met my family and I've met his, and they accepted me like i was one of them, i love spending time with them, i feel so welcome and it just feels like home.
As i said, we haven't been together long but i can see it carrying on for a long time, He needs to know that i love him and i trust him with my life no matter what happens, no matter how many people get in our way or how many walls we have to knock down, I'll be right there beside him the whole way. I never thought i would fee; this way but i do. Without my boyfriend i wouldn't be me, the person i am today. I'm not the most confident but I'm getting there because i trust him and i hope he trusts me. I tell him everything, he's like the best friend i never have. I hope reading this has made him understand just a fraction of the emotion i feel for him..
I love him with most of my heart, (i have to save some room for everyone else) and it will stay that way <3 xxx
Without Facebook, Twitter, Internet, phones etc.. there wouldn't be half the arguments there are today. People say things they wouldn't normally say to someones face over Facebook and Twitter and it just causes more fights.
Truth is, we all do it, say things we shouldn't, some regret it after, others don't.
But its different when your on the receiving end, its you who's crying over your computer watching the bitchy statuses and comments appear about you. its happened to everyone and it does hurt. So after about a week of watching all the comments roll in about me, never stopping, it starting to get to me a little. So they may not be directly aimed at me but I'm still involved, still mentioned, still hated upon. It puts a strain on my relationship; little cracks appearing every time somethings said.
Rumours are a different thing. Rumours start because either someone really hates you, or it has a speck of truth in it. So all the rumours going around about me and my friends hurt too because none are true, even slightly, so obviously there are people out there who seriously hate me. Its horrible walking around knowing that someone out there has it in for you.
Over the last few weeks, secrets have come out, friends have been revealed, hearts have been broken and its starting to take its toll, so my advice to you, don't ever say something to someone you wouldn't want them to say to you, because when its you receiving all the abuse you'll be the one that's crying and cant sleep.
This is dedicated to my beautiful sister, in competition with the boy she loves, you know who you are. He challenged me to describe the aspects of my sister better than he can. I'll fail because he is amazing, but I'm going to try anyway.
There is so much to say about my sister, but so little space to write. This girl, she blows my mind. Her astounding beauty, her pure talent and her authentic personality. Everyone has their flaws, but this girl, there is none. I wish she would see, recognise and maybe even start to postulate that she is beautiful. She's a girl who does not need to wear makeup every day, she' s a girl who doesn't need to wear tight clothes to get her noticed, she's a girl who doesn't need to scream at the top of her lungs to get her self noticed. If you ever walk down the corridor with this girl, as i do, you will understand. She's tall and curvy and her walk is bewitching, every pair of eyes will turn and look at her without a shadow of doubt. You feel second best to her. Its like living with a super model.
Everyday morning she'll get out of bed, sit up, yawn and turn to me. I look so bad, she says. every day. but she doesn't, Make up down her face, her hair sticking up she still looks like a goddess but she doesn't see it. It infuriates me, a girl so hauntingly beautiful, just wastes her beauty. she saunters around, her head low, hiding away embarrassed because she feels insecure. she has nothing to feel insecure about, if anyone it should be me, walking next to her.
She has deep heliotrope hair, which when hit by the sun glimmers, highlighting her perfectly defined face. Her amazing thick hair, exemplifies her face, shaping it so her cheek bones sit perfectly embedded into her face. Her eyes, a deep emerald green, have that shine in them, girls would kill for, and her eyelashes frame her eyes, thick, long and black. She has a cute button nose, sprinkled with freckles. She has succulent, baby pink lips which look soft to the touch. Her skin is pale and ghostly, her cheeks glowing pink when a compliment comes her away. Her shoulders are elegant and define her figure, which is amazing. she has gorgeous smooth, tanned legs which seem to grow every time i see her, her hips are perfect, sitting in the right place, pushing up her waist, to make her look even skinnier than she is. She has a stunning body and she doesn't realise it. She has to be the prettiest girl i know, and I'm not just saying that. She doesn't see it the way anyone else See's it. When looking in the mirror i think she mistakes her reflection for mine. Every picture, Every video, every drawing she's been captured in is astounding. she needs to get the confidence and realise she has something that every girl is jealous of.
Her Personality is just as beautiful as her looks, she's loyal and trust worthy. Tell her a secret and she doesn't tell a soul. Cry on her shoulder, she'll just laugh to cheer you up, tell her she looks good and she'll just deny it. Her heart is pure and filled with love. She knows when to laugh and when to be serious. Her sense of humour is great and she loves a good laugh. She is the best friend anyone could ever have.
I haven't even started on her talents yet. She has the voice of an angel. It gives you goose bumps and moves you to tears. Her laugh vibrates of everything, making you laugh when you hear it. The girl can move, put her on a dance floor and she's off, her hips shaking and swaying in time to the music. Put her in front of a piano and guitar and her hands will fly creating mesmerising, sweet music as she sings along. Her walk is flawless, her long legs taking ling confident strides, her hips shaking inviting your eyes. There are so many more things i could mention but i would be here for weeks and weeks. So here is my attempt at describing the girl i love most, my sister, My best friend. I Love You x
That Was the honest truth, nothing but.
So, today I'm celebrating my 15th birthday. Its November 13th 2011, a day I've been waiting for the whole year and its going to be another 365 days until I'm sweet 16. Hopefully next year, 365 days from now will be better than today was.
I'm not really looking forward to growing up, its a scary concept, slowly getting closer to your death, slowly ageing and collecting more responsibility as you go. I already have enough pressure as it is but now i have me, being 15, people expect more of you, and you to do better. you have to live up to the standards of other people and venture out of your comfort zone, venture into the unknown, but for those who know me, i like the calm and normal, the expected, not to be forced into growing up and doing things i don't want to do.
truth is, looking at it now, it seems like yesterday it was my 7th birthday, but this time soon, I'm going to be an adult, looking for a job, loosing the big v. Its a scary concept. Time flies by soo quickly and we don't even realise its gone. To end my whine I'm going to wish myself a lovely belated 15th birthday <3 happy birthday Simply Me.
xxx
