Jealousy

Everyone gets jealous at some points in their life, and me, i get jealous most of the time. I always tend to get jealous of one person who I'm so close to in my life i just couldn't live with out them. But at the same time, its hard living with them when you want everything they have. So without causing offence, I'm going to try and explain the feelings i have.


This girl is beautiful, and she knows it. All of her features are perfect and every minute of every day she always looks gorgeous. When I'm with her i always look so bad. I wish i could look like her.


She's good at absolutely everything and I'm not. Even if i can do something, she always outshines me and does it 10 times better and it always makes me feel so low and bad about myself. Even when people try and boost my confidence by telling me i'm better than her it never works. I always feel second best to her, and like I'm living in her shadow. 


She has a really good love life, and a decent guy who really values her. He's good looking and he's always been nice to me. I wish i could have a decent relationship like that where i don't get cheated on or left.


It really does put me down, i love her to pieces but i always feel so little and pointless next to her, and I've tried to tell myself that you know, maybe i am better than her at some things but it still never works. 


I hope this didn't cause any offence to anyone <3