Losing You

I've lost many people in my life and I'm sure you have too. Maybe due to death or general loss. A mistake that a friend made and now your no longer close, a family member involved in an argument and now you don't see them?
 There's losing people and there's losing things like your phone, keys, maybe even a pen? These things can be found again which resolves the problem but people are the things you cant retrieve. You can't take back death and people can never be fully forgiven for the things they have done.


You don't realise what you have and how good it was  until you loose it. Your keys for example, they take them for granted but when lost, you cant get into your house and your stuck. It hurts when you love someone close to you, but i cant work out which side I'm on? Is It good to lose someone so they can stop suffering, or you can get rid of their twisted ways, or should be selfish and  morn them, and never be the same again or storm around missing the person you lost even though it may have been your fault they left.
I cant help feel that a few certain Friends and family members have started drifting away from me for various reasons, they have found better friends and I'm no longer needed, I'm no longer good enough and they have fallen for someone else, or I'm just simply not wanted? I don't want to lose these people but i cant help thinking, would my life be a better place without them? I have to think about it from their perspective too, would they miss me deep down too or is our relationship just false and pretended. 
No one likes losing things so my advice is to always try and keep people and things close to your heart so you cant lose them and if you do, search and search until you get them back.


xxxx