This Is It, This Is Love

Today I learnt that no matter what happens you will always be there for me when others are not. I want to thank you for that because I need you.


When this all began I wasn't looking for a serious relationship, I just thought you wanted a fling. I never thought we would end up being like this. I don't know how you feel about me I just know my feelings. I've written many blogs about you but my feelings have grown since then so here is a new one.


I've always been scared to be myself with boys, I wont eat, buy anything in front of them and silly things like that but this week i had to tackle them all. You became 18 and i was worried that things might change for us because people might become wary about your age but fortunately everything is going smoothly. We went on a date for valentines day and our anniversary and we went to the cinema. In all the films when you go on a date and you sit next to the person you like and you can feel the almost electricity between you? It was like that, i was in awe. I knew then that i was in love. You were staring at me the whole time and it was making me nervous but i didn't realise you felt the same.

I'm with you because i love you, not because i want to compete with anyone else, i want this feeling to last and to never go. Your not just a boyfriend to me, but one of my best friends, i know that you'll always be there for me when I'm crying and when things are going on i can tell you and you wont tell a soul. You know how i feel these days, and sometimes i think you are one of the only people who can almost see things through my eyes and what i have to live with and help me through that. You always put yourself down for helping me, but you always do. You give the best advice and you always help me. I just wish that you would come to me a bit more. 
You always get  insecure thinking that I'll leave you and go out with someone else but i wont. In my eyes, its just you, there is no one else. Its you i don't want to leave me.
People don't know what I'm going through but you do, I'm really grateful that i can tell you things and you understand. If it wasn't for you right now, i wouldn't be me and i would have lost it, so thank you for being 
there and being my rock. 
Its hard to write and put my feelings into words because it might seem like I'm copying someone but i think you know how i feel. Words cant sum up how i feel...


When I'm not with you i feel lost but when I'm with you I'm lost for words. I don't know how I'm going to be without you but I'm going to try because i know that we still have forever <3