Why?...

Why is one of the most frequently asked questions. Why does this happen, Why is she doing that, Why won't it work? Children say it all the time but i think it all the time.
Why did i say that?
Why did i let him get away with that?
Why didn't i answer the phone?
Why didn't i tell the truth?
Why, Why, Why?


Everyday i ask myself a different why question. Sometimes i think the word shouldn't have been invented. 
Today's why?-
Why do i always push people away?
No matter what happens or what situation I'm in i always push people away and now its starting to bug me. I'm starting to think he shouldn't be with me because it wont last because I'll ruin it. I'm starting to think that I'm making everything he says up. He shouldn't be with me.  Why?